How is it that one person can affect your mood so dramatically?
So, i woke up in already a bit of a foul mood, mostly due to the lack of sleep and the fact that the plans of the night didnt quite follow through. But i mean, oh well, stuff happens. Last night i stayed over at my good friend, Marie's house. I woke up this morning, liek i said, in a bit of a not-so-good mood but it was tolerable. Went home, took a little nap, listened to some music. And then, "BOOSH" [in the words of my boyfriend] shit hit the fan. I get a text from my Wonderful boyfriend, and all it said was "Hi :(" Immediately i knew something had gone wrong. Turns out there was a horrible fight the night before and he barely slept over it, then was forced to have to go to work in the morning, im assuming. He was in probably the most miserable mood, it hurt so much to see. After this, i just felt emotionally and physically drained. Nothing seemed worth it, AT ALL.
Yes, I am in complete love with my boyfriend, and i care so much about him and would do anything for him, but how, no, why is it possible to feel like complete and utter shit just because you know the most important person in your life is miserable? And with that, is it even good to care so much? I obviously dont mind caring this much about such a wonderful, amazing young man, but rationally it just doesnt seem right to care so much about anyone, in general, to let their sadness totally ruin what could have been a decent relaxing day.
These are the thoughts i run through in my head, every minute of everyday. So dont mind my mindless banter. :)
Regardless of my exceedingly foul mood, have a Wonderful day.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Friday, January 2, 2009
well hai
So i stumbled upon this site quite randomly. I really have no idea how i found it actually. I dont believe any friends of mine actually have one, so oh well. Basically, if anyone ever reads these, this is just going to be a spot where i chat about complete randoms, get stuff off my chest, and whatnot.
Recently, shit has hit the fan. It all began, with me dating my current boyfriend and love, Paul. Who i am convinced im in love with. Ive never experienced anything like this. Its totally new and i love every minute of it. anyways, issues arose due to my boyfriends age, hes twenty, im seventeen. whatever its just age. so as if that wasnt enough for my mother to look down upon me, i decided to go to hollywwod and illegally get tattoos with some of my close girlfriends. they actually came out good. my mother liked mine only because she thought i did it myself...? anyways, since then, everything went downhill. things eventually started looking up finally. anyways... more on that later.
recently ive been going through issues with close friends. one friend in particular actually. Things seemed to have settled down, but through that whole drama filled situation, i actually found an amazing friendship with a girl by the name of Marie. We have been friends for a few years, but we recently became very close due to this situation and similar feelings. I seriously love this girl, shes fucking amazing haha. and we always tend to have fun, whether it be sleeping in the halls at school, or listening to our new favorite band practice, Sing My Demise. LOOK THEM UP ON MYSPACE. They're a very talented group actually.
ok this is where i stop. im annoying myself lol. im speaking complete randoms so im off.
Have an amazing day <3
Recently, shit has hit the fan. It all began, with me dating my current boyfriend and love, Paul. Who i am convinced im in love with. Ive never experienced anything like this. Its totally new and i love every minute of it. anyways, issues arose due to my boyfriends age, hes twenty, im seventeen. whatever its just age. so as if that wasnt enough for my mother to look down upon me, i decided to go to hollywwod and illegally get tattoos with some of my close girlfriends. they actually came out good. my mother liked mine only because she thought i did it myself...? anyways, since then, everything went downhill. things eventually started looking up finally. anyways... more on that later.
recently ive been going through issues with close friends. one friend in particular actually. Things seemed to have settled down, but through that whole drama filled situation, i actually found an amazing friendship with a girl by the name of Marie. We have been friends for a few years, but we recently became very close due to this situation and similar feelings. I seriously love this girl, shes fucking amazing haha. and we always tend to have fun, whether it be sleeping in the halls at school, or listening to our new favorite band practice, Sing My Demise. LOOK THEM UP ON MYSPACE. They're a very talented group actually.
ok this is where i stop. im annoying myself lol. im speaking complete randoms so im off.
Have an amazing day <3
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